What are you doing this weekend? What are your plans for the summer? What are you going to do with your major? Do you have a job lined up for after graduation?
No... I don't have any plans.
No plans. No direction. Not for this weekend, not for my life.
Where am I going? What am I doing? I don't have any idea what my future will look like.
Aimless. Directionless. And, now and then, hopeless.
Today! Not Tomorrow! [and not yesterday]
Yeah, it's scary sometimes. So I turn my mind to Jeremiah 29:11. I don't have a plan but I know that God does and I know that it's a good one. Guess what, he already told me the ending. I know I'm going to be okay even though everything is a mess right now. So I'm not going to worry about planning right now. I'm not going to think about what I'm going to do tomorrow. I'm going to try not to think about what I did (or didn't do) in the past. No plans. I'm going to finish what's on my plate today. Onwards.
Why am I starting a personal blog? I've never been one to share about myself publicly. In fact, I'm more used to being downright reclusive. Partially because I'm just so boring. Who am I? I am nobody. Who would want to listen to me? Does anybody even care what I think? My achievements, my accomplisments (or lack thereof), the mundane details of my life... I'm the farthest from interesting. I admit it, I'm dull. I'm a bad storyteller, I'm a wearisome conversationalist, I'm neither inspirational nor entertaining. So again, why am I doing this?
There are reasons... For one, I'm hella lonely. I don't really have anybody to talk to. And besides, I'm really worried about bothering them with the tediousness of my musings. So my thoughts just rattle back and forth in my head like a never-ending game of pong. At least here, on my blog, I'm not bothering anyone and so I can just let these thought-cookies out of the jar.
Second, I gotta practice my writing. Want to get better at piano? Play piano. Want to get better at Super Smash Bros.? Play more Smash. So I'm going to embrace my Communications major and get better at writing by writing. No, I'm not going to write every post like it's a grad-school thesis, it is still just a blog after all. I expect most of my posts to be embarrassingly low-quality, barely coherent ramblings in which I play it fast and loose with things such as "pacing" and "structure" while completely disregarding grammar. "A year from now, you'll wish you started today." So I'm gonna write. Today, not tomorrow. Onward.
And finally, I've been told a personal website looks good to potential employers. I expect this to backfire.